I want to try art therapy with you so badly and I know that I need to go deep. At the same time, I have a great fear of what I will find. Is this typical? I don’t understand my fear and my hesitancy. Maybe because of my fear of what I can discover about myself. I will have to change. What if I can’t do what I need to heal myself? Why am I stuck? Would art therapy help me to get unstuck? I don’t even know what I need. I just need to do something.
These are very good questions. Thank you for bringing them up. Lots of people are afraid of what they might discover during therapy.
Your psyche (your internal defense mechanisms) will not allow you to go deeper than you can handle. Therefore, you won’t find anything that you can not process. Our defense mechanisms are stronger than we think. They are hidden from us deep in our subconscious mind. If there is something that you cannot digest at this time (some childhood trauma or painful memory), your psyche will never reveal it to you.
Therapy is all about healing. It means that you will have to face your own fears, your own limiting beliefs, and your own challenges. At some point, it can be hard and emotional. You might feel even more stuck during the process, but this is how therapy works. If the therapy is bright, shiny, and happy all the time, then it won’t benefit you. You will only suppress your problems even deeper. Therapy has it’s up and down moments. Moments of sadness and moments of freedom. The insights can bring some sorrow and can relieve you from an invisible burden at the same time.
This is the process of healing. I don’t know your family story. I don’t know anything about your childhood or adulthood. I can’t say how tough or easy it will be for you. It depends on you and on how much you are willing to work on yourself. You can take a break at any moment. You will decide how deep you want to go. I am willing to support you during your healing journey all the way. I am here for you, but the decision is yours.
If you feel that the time has come and you are willing to start your self-discovery journey, I will be happy to share my professional knowledge with you and guide you on this challenging, yet wonderful road of self-realization!
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